Homesick?

I've been away from home for like, almost 3 weeks. And I haven't missed home a bit. I don't know why. The only thing that concerns me is Mom & Dad. Once a week I call them and talk to them for a while about how they are doing. They call me more often (ha.ha. that's why they are Mom & Dad).

Life is like an endless journey. If you reach the end, the happiness, the wealth, the success, it ain't gonna be any fun. Every stage of life contains such things that you'd have completed. I always worry if in any case I'd have missed any chance of living life to the fullest. My friends occasionally joke me around of not having a boyfriend, enjoying life & being selfish about my own happiness. And they also advise me to be able to become looser... you know, like you don't need to be in a serious relationship, but in a flirting-flinging state. What matters me is that in the culture I live in, ppl don't do those things. One only falls in love, and accepts a relationship if she thinks she could go to the end of life with that person - it means staying committed.

I am a person like that, staying committed and taking a relationship seriously. However, I think I'm changing. Maybe it is because I have reached the age of 24... Before I never thought that I'll date a Western man, and one that is younger than me... But I am gonna now. One is Western (who comes from a totally different culture), and YOUNGER. I normally prefer guys who are mature, serious & honest. This guy is so much different from what I imagine my boyfriend should be. But who cares & who knows. Just go with the flow. Enjoy life & have fun, will I?

Being away from home again, and this time how long it's gonna be I don't know yet. Everyday I need to do things that I've never done while at home. I cook 2 meals a day, eat 3 meals & snacks in between =). I read like a snail. A few pages daily. Take 1 pill. Drink a glass of wine (OMG, here's the wine is so so good & CHEAP). Walk 2-5 miles every single day, going to school (20 min walk from home), going shopping, running some errands etc. Walk. Walk & Walk again (at home I NEVER walk). Start to find a part-time job & apply for some full time job next year. Make friends. And start to get loose a little bit, don't think too much but start doing everything I WANT, like spending 30' min this morning sitting beside the window daydreaming about.... :"> Yesterday I also bought some flowers, bringing them home & feeling happy. The sky was dull and gloomy, everybody was wearing really boring colors, grey, black, beige,  you name it. I didn't know why I suddenly felt very happy.

I do understand one thing that Im starting to slow down my life, living it more slowly & simply and start enjoying every minute of it.